randomness in melaka

i think i shud update my blog more frequently... since i am bored...
i am mushrooming in melaka... my hometown..
watching tv, sleep , eat, online, fbing, and sleep... daily routines...
juz last week, i started to get myself a job bak in my mum's tuition centre...
i missed those kids... i missed myself as a happy yet fierce tutor...
i love those kids... seriously... (when they dun piss me off..duh!)
i love my job.. and also the pay... haha~!
so with this pay, i am going to singapore!!!
cant wait for it.

ave been watching tv for the past days...
loved those shows...
being fashion freaked so recently. craving for gladiators, bags, seafarers, shades, tees, shirts, arghhhh! must go shopping.

waiting for friends to come back... missed u all damn lots weiiii

btw. my dslr cant be used at this moment... i am in effing crisis now... cannot shoot fotos. damn bored...
i am going to get my baby DSLR an ultra glamorous super duper bling bling flash!
Nissin Di622 speedlite......
muaks!

haven been touching my pen and papers for a week.. wonder if my right hand is cacated...LOL

btw... so long time never draw is because i dislocated my wrist on the sunday once sembreak starts.. UNLUCKY and also LUCKY in someways... lol te lucky part is its already after my finals.. orelse i will fail for sure!

wrist dislocated... thanks to the rain! DUH! i have to go see rachel liang with my dislocated bandaged wrist and i cant hold my DSLR nicely.. sadness!

whats my plan before the start of level one?

- I am planning a fashion photography shoot with my peeps...
- Do styling for my fashion photography
- Start to make a weird dress for my model...
- have fun in Singapore...
-have fun during orientation day with newbies!


ciao! bye bye

i seriously need a retreat for myself... cameron, or anywhere~ a photography romantic retreat~

where

keeping myself away.
trying not to think bout you
but failed.
tears.
rolling down .


need friends,
love is not in the air this period.
many couple broke up around me.

need time,
to heal the heart.
to heal the bleeding pain

need myself,
where i cant find my personality

need love,
someone who care and share,
and will be taken care

need music,
where my soul can be heard by myself.

where am i?

i am lost.







for this moment. perhaps.


thanks to those who helped me a lot.
i seriously want to thank you guys.















where is the lost and found counter in my world?













i need to search for it....


my.everything
IncludingYouAlthoughThereIsNoMoreChances

failed

i don't know what to say.
helpless.. can any1 save me?
keep me distracted.
once i closed my eyes...i think of it.
there is any way?
wanna find back the good old days. where we were fond of each other.
now?
its just only me . not you anymore.
there is no way out. i cant fin my light to lead me.
helplessly.. seriously.

its happening... im drowning.....
seeing things in a very pessimistic way. never that happy.
how can i get back you?
A and K was so happy but K lost to another A.

never thought this will happen....
it came too fast.
it ended too fast.
where is our coming V day?
i miss you.
your hug, ur temperature, ur everything.
it seems that my heart is still with you.
every night and day.
can everything change?
can i change everything?
can we start over again?
can we?

it is soo deep in my heart, i have no one to share. looking at others.

my shoulders felt so cold, i wanna be in my dreams, so that i can recall everything that happened. before and before.

our past, our joy, our happiness

its not here anymore.



where, when, who...







turn back and i will always be there......

artificial flowers don't wilt

i feel stupid when i look back to what i have done.

looking forward for you to look back for me.

i am still into you


can i think that what you said just now is actually 口是心非？i really hope so

♥

原来那么不坚固



我没安全感
才会说那些话

昨天真的很后悔

和平相处真的那么难？

看清你的口是心非，并非坏事，知道吗？
我更了解你，不是更好吗？

♥你

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i feel so helpless...
so cold....